Letting Go of Fear

For the last two years I have been learning how to prioritise my happiness.

Battling all sorts of issues has been my "college course" and now as I reflect back on my experience, all of these issues have actually been the manifestation of Fear-In-Disguise.

Fear of not having enough money;

Fear of being judged;

Fear of not being liked;

Fear of not being accepted as I am...

A simple, basic, regular FEAR that kept morphing to disguise itself. 

How clever is our human subconscious mind at trying to protect us from perceived threat (because I'm sure yours is doing the same, playing the same tricks on you)! Today, this fear was exposed, yet again, for what it is - a mechanism of protection. 

Just so we are on the same page, let's establish that:

Procrastination is fear-in-disguise, not laziness;

Staying in a job that you don't like is fear-in-disguise and there is nothing noble about it;

Being a people-pleaser is fear-in-disguise, not a character quality;     

I can carry on...

Just so you also know, I wasn't immune to all of the above; they were my state of being for about 49 years of my life.

Today, I had a glimpse of what it means to fully embody the only truth that matters: 

that my happiness, in the body I occupy in this world, is the most important thing I can care about. 

As I was drawing on Day 12 of my Letting Go Project, I kept deleting all irrelevant "worries" and "issues" I could perceive in my life. Much like a good gardener, I pulled out all sorts of annoying, nagging, energy-sucking weeds that don't belong in my vegetable patch and only left the one main crop that I want growing there.

Here is what happened.

After choosing the essential oil to help me along, Bergamot (see why at the end of the post), I drew a Neurographica picture, with the Algorithm of Removing Limitations. This is something I have recently mastered, thanks to a very good instructor. 

If you haven't heard about Neurographica® before, it is an artistic method of personal development, a sort of psychological art that is deeply founded in science. It works! I will be talking a lot about Neurographica® from now on but for now let me just share what happened while I was drawing today. 

1. First, I put 3 drops of Bergamot in the diffuser, and then I "threw" all my fear on the paper. It lookes like that (pic. 1).

pic. 1

2. Then I started making sense of it. It was painful. The mind wasn't letting the hand do the change.
(pics. 2, 3)

pic. 2

pic. 3
 

3. as the Algorithm requires, the next step was to reached out to connect to the Universe. So I did. It embraced me with open arms. I felt at home. (pic. 4, 5)

pic. 4

pic. 5

4. Blue meant freedom, boldness, courage, truth. Two shades of blue - for being able to see alternative points of view and have compassion. Little gaps were erased because they were irrelevant. (pic. 6)

pic. 6

5. As I created the big rivers of Universal energetic support (aka Field Lines, see the thicker lines in pic. 6), the whole picture came to life. 

pic. 7

6. It was so easy to see my FEARLESS self in this new setup. A marvelous, harmonious circle of pure energy, filled with creativity and love. (pic. 7)

This is only Day 12, out of 21!

I am soooo excited for what Day 13 will bring, tomorrow! Will let you know...

This is Neurographica®: the creative way to personal self-improvement. It's currently my favourite one (on the same par as PSYCH-K®, which I swear by, of course). When done properly, it is just as fast as PSYCH-K® in the results it can deliver. 

Oh, I promised to share why I chose Bergamot. 

Here is why, from "Gifts of the Essential Oils" book.

If you found Day 12 interesting, you may want to check out Day 11 - I recorded it in this video.